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0 Adorable | Sunday, September 6, 2009 6:29 PM

"I wished you could understand. But just wishing wont make anything happen. "

It was as if your teenage years
were wiped out by waves of tsunamis;
shaken into dust by a massive earthquake;
blown away by swirling tornados;
or maybe you were never even a teenager in the first place.

You wont even try to know me; which is exactly why you dont understand me.
I feel happy around my friends; but all you do is stamp all over it.
Blaming them for this and dhat
all the things they didnt do
like my "rebellious behaviour"
when it was all your own fault.
Dont try to put it on anyone else.
All they did was put a glimmer of hope in my life,
when you transformed my world,
into a bottomless black pit.

I know its freakin wrong to say all this, cause i owe you for bringing me up.
Its not an easy job, doing it alone.
But whats the point anyways,
in giving me a life dhats full of screams, shouts & tears?
Pain, hatred, anger...

Why cant you be like the other parents?
Why?
Their child s birthdae...
A birthday cake with beautifully lit candles.
Mine, you dont even try to remember the date.
You humiliate me in public,
spout bad untruths,
you hurt me.

I know you try not to expect too high of me,
but i just cant, or wont, do it.
im not really trying, i cant.
Cant take the pressure.
Cant stand to see the rock bottom scores for my math & chinese.
Even tho i shoukld be gettin used to it.
I know i can achieve better results.
Its only the matter whether i wanna do it or not.
But i cant bring myself to do it.

I'm sorry.
for the mistakes i'd made,
the bad i'd done,
for not trying harder,
and how we'd ended up like this.
I just cant be bothered to care anymore.
i mean, whats the point?

But thanks for being so cold; you made me stronger.

Thanks for hitting me; you made me realise my mistake & learn to stand the pain.

Thanks for saying those untruths; so i'll learn how to defend myself without a shield.

Thanks for not being around when i needed you; i became much more independant.

Thanks for making my life miserable; so i wont grow up to make the same mistake.

Thanks for not giving me tym to chill when im angry; I recover faster.

And lastly,
Thanks for everthing you put me through.
I ve kinda learn to be a better person.
But im not perfect.
Nobody is,
and i dont want to be(: